Tragedy...

I hate myself sometimes...

For being hypocritical and a two-faced...

Judge me and condemn me...

I'm sorry but I have to admit,I'm selfish...

What can I say,it's human nature to be selfish.

The past few weeks has been a disaster.I've made quite a few mistakes,I've thought of things I should not have,I doubted when I shouldn't have.You know what I really need?A day off.

I even scolded someone dear who took the effort to apply for leave to help me settle my PTPTN and yet,I snapped at that poor fella for wasting his holidays.Even though I sometimes complain that we do not get to spend time together and here I am,scolding him for doing something that I had complained earlier.Miserable,selfish,brat I am...

It's strange but I think I am actually craving for something but I can't seem to point it out.Ice-cream?Chocolates?Fries?This is driving me crazy...

The assignments keep on coming.One after the other,like a domino effect.Neverending... Well,that's the price one have to pay for not having to sit for exams.This communication degree requires you to hand in assignments and not exams.

If given a choice,I would want to live like there's no tomorrow...But the chains and ropes hold me back.I'm forced to obey the norms of society.

GOT THAT?! You must behave like a proper lady in high society.Flaunt your talents and beauty and never mistakes.Keep a stiff upper lip and show the world what you have...

The Fellowship of Men...

I enjoyed myself tremendously yesterday during the Taylor's Christian Fellowship.It has been a long time since I have made new friends,met new people,new faces.I have to say,it was refreshing.

Good job to Jade,Joash and to the other CF committee.

Pastor David Yeow was refreshing,refreshing and refreshing.=)

Hopefully things would take a turn,because I have been stressed out by assignments and what-nots.Really stressed. Including the ridiculous PTPTN forms.I could literally rip my brains out. =(

Back to reality now...

In a MESS!

Argh,this is what happens when you do last minute packing.I forgot to bring my thumbdrive! All my notes! All my homework! My life is practically in there! Noooooooooo...Ok,I was just exaggerating.But yeah,it was actually a pain in the butt.All my notes are inside there,my articles for my PR subject are in there.Thank God I had decided to get the internet access from the library.The computers in the library are so slow! As slow as a tortoise?I just googled which is the slowest animal on earth and the sloth IS considered the slowest animal.

I detest the new way of submitting our assignemnts.I practically loathe assighIT.Why can't we just hand in a hard copy of our assignments.What a bother...

Now,the only assignments left are PR's media diary,the 10 articles and CCS's weekly tasks.ARGH!
CCS peer-reviewed article needs to be summarized!!!!!!!!! SOMEBODEH KILL ME!

Worn out...

And here I thought Sunday was suppose to be the day you rest.I mean come on,even God rested on the Sabbath! My Sunday was packed like a can of sardines!

First half of my day was spent in church,from 9am till 4.15pm.After an hour of last minute packing we went for dinner and immediately went to Jusco for a movie,Alive in Wonderland.
After that,went to buy some essentials and as it was raining very heavily,we decided to hang out in Starbucks for awhile for the rain to stop. Around 10.15pm and no sign of the rain stopping,we made a dash to the car.I decided to drive as I felt that I needed to practice driving since it has been quite some time when I drove.

And guess what,it took me an hour just to reach Nilai! ONE WHOLE FREAKING HOUR! The traffic jam was crazy,bumper to bumper and 2-3 accidents by the road. Funny thing was,after Nilai,there was no traffic at all.NONE! How do you explain that?!

It took me two and a half hours just to reach PJ.It usually takes an hour and fifteen minutes max to reach PJ.Honestly speaking,I could have fallen asleep behind the wheel if it weren't for some hyperactive monkey in the car chattering,trying to keep me awake. I was soooooooo tired.If this happens every week,I'll tell you what,I'll just run away!

Today was no exeption,the morning class was bearable,while the afternoon class was a pain.A REAL PAIN!This is the first time in my whole college/university life that I really couldn't stand it.And with all the last minute changes,come on,you trying to get me killed?

Assignments all due next week.Easter is around the corner.Know what that spells? ENDLESS NIGHT OF COFFEE DRINKING...

I'm physically,mentally and emotionally tired...Can't get any worse than this.

Dear God,if you are reading this,please,I need a break.Thanks,and maybe You could send someone to help me with my assignments?I need a little help from You.Thank YOU...

Eve was FRAMED!

These are the dancers of Agape Gospel Assembly,ages range from 7 to 25? Haha...














I had an extremely busy day.Hectic to the max! I was flooded,extremely flooded.
I woke up at 8am,dad wanted to bring us to Min Kok for breakfast but when we reached Min Kok there was a queue as long as the gigantic snake from Anaconda the movie.

We soon improvised and went to a nearby coffee shop and had some delicious mutton/char siew/pork noodles.Well,I had hakka mee,was craving for it for no apparent reason.After breakfast,it was already 10.35am,so my dad just drop me off church for dance practice. Waited for the others and had a shouting match with the kids until 3.30pm. You know kids,they are cute but they also have a mind of their own.I had quite a tough time controlling them especially the ones who thought they were far too important to obey me. After a gruelling 4 hour stunt with them,my dad came and pick me up.

My journey did not end here,he ended up driving me around with him to do some errands.On the way home,he asked me whether I wanted to visit Carrefour as I have never been inside the newly built Carrefour near my place.I finally reached home at 6.30pm. Then I had to immediately force feed one of the pups as he was having some difficulties feeding.Poor thing has an abnormally large tongue which i-do-not-know-why-for-some-scientific-fact that he could not suckle/feed on his mom.And now,it is 7.30pm.I need to continue with my Effective Comm. notes! Argh!

Want to know my agenda for tomorrow?
Hmm,let's see.
8AM-Wake up for church
9.30AM-in church till 11.15am
11.30am-stay for dance practice
1pm till 4.30pm-combine practice with choir and drama team
4.30pm till 6.30pm-Some big shot coming over to my house about the complaint(the road in my area has been closed and there were some major complaints.Some big shot is coming)
7PM-Leave to Jusco for a movie with family(Alice in Wonder Wonderland...)
9.30pm-have late dinner with family and finally...
10.15pm-leave for KL...

Add or minus a few hours...

Well,that sums up my weekend.Now,all I have to do is find some time to insert HOMEWORK into my schedule.

Is my life busy or hectic?Nah,just a typical weekend of mine. =)

Twenty,plenty and a granny...

This sarcastic/mean/irritating/sadistic-in-a-way/crazy/emo-ted/cynical/cutting/critical... and the list can go on...has finally turned twenty.One word man,OLD! =)

But he is fun to be around with,though I hate to admit it.

I have to thank him for the changes in my chat life.
Examples:noob,git gud,nao,ye,git gud on mae level,nawt,dummeh,y *insert name* y?,moar,bai...

Well,there were ups and downs but it was an honour knowing you.May you have a blessed birthday and may you continue kicking for the next 60 years and MOAR!

Happy Birthday~ (^^,)

Finally,some photos...

This is Mojito.Everyone say hello,Mojito!
(19/3/2010)














This is Dixie.Say hello Dixie.Dixie looks like this because she took a sip of Mojito.
(19/3/2010)














This is Dixie before the Mojito.In KLCC,trying on some hats.I think I look like one of those chinese tourists.Cute ain't I?
(19/3/2010)















This is Dixie in some Vietnamese restaurant.Food was yummy.This is the appetizer.Nice with a variety of food.
(19/3/2010)



The appetizer.
(19/3/2010)




Some random old photo taken during Chinese New Year 2010.





Can't even remember when this was taken.

Java Chip...mmmmmmm!

Sitting alone in Starbucks is a totally new experience for me.With a cup of Java chip,cold and nicely blended to perfection.Waiting for time to pass,as I sip my coffee,I take a long sip and suddenly.... ARGH....brain freeze. Hahaha,caught you by surprise didn't I?

As usual,the ktm was quite packed,the LRT to my surprise was even packer?(is there such a word?) Crowded.That's the word I was looking for.After drinking this cup of expensive and somewhat overrated cofffee,I need something salty.It's a little chilly now.Fingers are,well,numb from the cold. Another hour to go.

Looks like many of my friends are determined to be hardworking.I was chatting online with a friend a little while ago and she too had to face the hardships of life.The disappointed look of our parents when we do not get the grades we are suppose to get.I had that too.It wasn't a very nice experience,the look of our parents,it's because we know that we could have done better,we could have passed with flying colours.If only we had been determined and perservered.I have to admit,I need to work on my perserverence level.I give up too easily sometimes.

Can't wait to go home and see me puppies!!! muah!!!

Wasted...

I've finally finished my summary and am going to start reading my notes for Effective Comminucation.

Cleaned my whole room again. When you are alone,many things crept in your mind and thus make you think of nonsense. As they say,an idle mind is a devil's workshop. I chose to entertain those thoughts,it almost made me regret the decisions and promises that I have made. This is just a thought,"Am I wasting my youth away?".

Was it a mistake?

Thanks to SANDRA(since you said Liew Pei Yee sounds weird),you made me realize that it still boils down to commitment! I have to say,it's not easy but nothing comes easy in life right?

Believe it or not,I'm actually using someone's internet line without permission.Tehehe,I saw this unsecured network and immediately connected to it.And to my surprise,it got through!

History was meant to be repeated,only we get to choose the good part of history or the one we hope will never repeat itself...

Lousy friend am I...

As I was reading through Chloe's blog,I realised that I have totally lost contact with all my beloved high school friends... Chloe,Jian Li,Liew Pei Yee,Ching Yan,Kwai Chan,Wai Shee,Sheera,Chin Hui,Amelin,Dyi Ting,Amelin,Stephanie,Sook Fun,Mei Ji,Mei Lin,Diane,Vanessa and so many others.It's such a shame. My lack of effort in communicating with these people is such a shame.I'm ashamed of myself.I've been so caught up with my own life that I have neglected these very same friends that I have gone through thick and thin. Sorry guys. HOPE to meet up with everyone soon.

You cramping my style???

Oooh,so help me!

Summary writing,and here I thought we needed to be creative? So what's up with the follow-the-example-I-gave-you? You is cramping me style!Believe it or not,I wrote my summary for 6 hours! Well,in between that 6 hours I was listening to music,looking for ants to kill,cooked a packet of maggi mee,fell asleep for half an hour,read a few pages of magazine,washed my clothes,ate an apple,doodled on my paper and finally after 6 long and painful hours I finished my summary.And I had to squeeze every amount of creativity from my brain to try to write this summary and in 5 minutes,you told me to follow the freaking example you gave us????Like what?????!!!!!!

Ok,so far,I have been trying to boost myself to study harder and not procrastinate and thanks to Amber,who has been a great motivation to me.Living alone has been very quiet compared to living with all 3 sisters,8 dogs and parents.Noticed any difference?I do.

Degree has been a real challenge.All the readings and researching and summarizing,this cannot be compared to foundation.SAY NO TO PROCRASTINATION!

How do you make friends with your housemates whom you only get to see at night when they return home from work and immediately shut themselves in their own rooms?I once accidently bumped into one of them and gave her a shy smile and you know what I got in return?A stare which says "what the crap are you looking at and who the heck are you?" Well,maybe it was just me but that was what I felt at that very moment.You can't say I didn't try.

My room looks like a mess.I did clean my room but it still looks like a mess.I think it's because there are too many stuff lying around even though I tried arranging them and placing them in order but it still looks like a hurricane just swept past my room.It's not my fault.Really!I tried.

Currently,THE only thing that can uplift my appetite is Aunty Anne's. The past two days I was force feeding myself.Bluek... I found out that,I can't concentrate in class if I'm sitting at the back of class while I turn into a hardworking and determined student when I am in the front seat.Looks like there is some truth in the research done by some people.Moral of the story,SIT RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE LECTURER.

I'm in a lack-a-dai-si-cal mood.

WORD OF THE DAY: Lackadaisical = idle or indolent especially in a dreamy way,lacking spirit or liveliness!

TA-DA! I learnt a new word today.

I've been trying to be hardworking. Yesterday I cleaned my room. I swept the floor and hand-mopped the floor (Cinderella style).
Then I tried studying, read some slides given by the lecturer and started on my summary. After every 5 minutes I have this compulsive disorder to look at the ceiling/walls/floor for ants. They seem to be everywhere even though I have cleaned every nook and cranny in my room. Ants irk me. They are very irk-ish. Want to know the fun part? After cleaning my room, my housemate decided to fry an egg. With onions. And walah,my room is reeking of egg and oil.

To be honest, I felt a lil' lonely. Just a tiny bit.

Ok, I have been staring at this page for 10 minutes. Mental-Block. Good bye...

Faded Memories:The Movie

I was casually surfing the internet when I saw that there was a movie with the same name as my blog.Faded Memories by Anne-Sophie Dutoit. She was only 14 when she first drafted on this,and she managed to convinced people to finance her and soon started filming at the age of 16.

I'm feeling a little slothful so therefore am just going to copy and paste the synopsis from the main website. I will also insert the link for those who want to check out the trailer. http://www.fadedmemoriesmovie.com/TheMovie.html

Movie Synopsis

Seventeen-year-old Cassandra (Anne-Sophie Dutoit) has a rare phobia: she is afraid of physical contact with other people -- a condition that has haunted her all her life.

Cassandra and her aunt Maggie May (Ely Pouget) drift from town to town in a beat-up trailer, while Maggie May looks for the next man in her life and her next bottle of booze. When they arrive in Malibu, California she meets Lucas (Brock Vincent Kelly) a handsome teen and for the first time begins to feel for someone. Lucas is fascinated by the beautiful and different Cassandra and slowly they fall in love.

But Nancy (Kim Morgan Greene), Lucas’ mother, has other plans. Her husband (Robert Sampson) is dying and the family will go bankrupt if she can’t marry Lucas off to Pam (Marika Devan), whose parents are wealthy.

Nancy sees how much Lucas is attracted to Cassandra and will do anything to break up the budding relationship. She asks former detective Peter (Nick James) to find out what he can about the two intruders. What he uncovers sets off a dramatic chain of events that change the two teenagers’ lives forever as Cassandra is sent to a mental health facility.

While incarcerated, Cassandra writes dozens of letters to Lucas. But she never sends the letters and she hears nothing from him. It is only when she is released seven years later that the deep mystery of her life unravels.

I have to say,I am very keen on watchng this movie.It is not everyday one gets to be an actor and a director at the age of 16. Wow...

The Start of a New life.

Some of you must be wondering,why bother creating a blog when I use to have one? Well,frankly speaking,for me,blogging is a form of writing,a form of expressing myself creatively. Honestly speaking,I did not do any style of writing when I deleted my blog and I found that my skills in writing has decreased,dwindled,diminished and slowly fading away~~~

So,I hope many of you will welcome me with open arms as I pour my heart and soul into this blog.(nah,just kidding) I will reminisce/brag/complain about my life but to the minimal as I have seen the effects of exposing too much of oneself through the internet.

Firstly,I currently have one week old puppies,six of them to be exact,crawling and clambering all over the floor. THEY ARE FOR SALE. I will soon post pictures of them when they have opened their eyes.

Ok,that's all for today.Whew,I can feel the strain in my brain after the long periond of non-creative thinking and writing.

Toodles~~