It's all a facade...

I thought I kept it all locked away for good. I thought I was tougher than that. I thought I could handle this. Well, I thought wrong.

When can I wake up from this nightmare? Is this even a nightmare? It has been hard, differentiating reality and dreams.

Am treading on still waters. Holding my breath, afraid of losing out, afraid of going insane.

Wait, maybe going insane would be easier on my insanity.

I thought I was strong,turns out I was wrong.
I thought I was happy,turns out I was dotty.
I thought I had let go, turns out it isn't so.
I thought I knew my aim, turns out it was all a game.
I thought I was a bore, turns out life is a chore.
I thought I would live by the shore, turns out, I didn't know what for.
I thought I could live, turns out it was just my shift,
I thought in this world I was more than just a girl, turns out it was just a game of thrills.
I thought I could take it easy, turns out it was just plain messy,
I thought I could take step by step, turns out it was all a mishap.
I thought I knew the meaning of love, turns out I'm just a little girl.

Dixie Ong, 3 September 2010.