Of roundness and thrones...

ROUND CAKE FINALLY~

Baked a round cake finally. For the first time in my life! The edges look a little distorted because I used baking paper and did not really bother to fit it snugly into the tin. But overall, it was one of my proudest moments. Hahaha. I finally made a round cake! Same butter cake recipe but I tweaked the icing and added a little spunk into it. I used the juice of a very old and wrinkled lemon, a packet of leftover icing sugar and butter. Just dolloped some butter into it. No measurements, nothing. Tasted good though. =) Ahh, the goodness of improvising.



The two pictures above is a little joke I made during lunch in Pyramid in T-Bowl. Chris ordered lamb something something. As the waiter served it, I casually just said, "Hey, the lamb seated on the throne.'' Get it? The lamb was served in a toilet bowl and well... No offence to christians. Ok, never mind. =) I found it funny though. I have been roaming around Pyramid quite a lot as I have been assigned the duty as a driver for my sister. A chauffeur.

And yes, Chris has finally started college. Actually she started for quite some time and is already on her CNY break. =D


Brought her to Woo Ga Chon,a little restaurant near Mentari Court. Food is fantastic while the price is quite reasonable. I mean, for that kind of service,quality of food and not to mention the free refills of the side dishes, it's worth the money!

Talking about quality of food and service, the other day. my sister and I went to a restaurant in Pyramid(I am refraining myself from mentioning the shop as I've just read in the newspaper that a restaurant owner is sueing this blogger for defamatory reasons against his restaurant.This blogger mentioned something about "staying away from it like a bad case of herpes" or something like that.) Well, all I can say is, for a big outlet with many branches, the service was terrible, quality of food even worse and the staff's faces were so long, they were literally sweeping the floor.I needed to raise my hand for more than a minute to get my drink refilled? I would understand completely if they were busy but the shop had only 4 customers at that time and most of the staff were loitering around looking a lot like dead zombies.

I swore to myself I would never go into that shop again! Grrr. Imagine, I even had to wait to pay the bill. My sister and I were standing at the counter for so long, and I was so close to walking out without paying had not my principles stopped my. Someone told me that peole with principles will not get rich. He meant that as a joke but I do find it true in some way.

I am back home! Fluffy so cute! SO CUTE!

That's all for now. I feel like I'm missing something but I can't seem to put my finger on it.

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Surf the mind...

Sorry for the lack of pictures. Have not been a very journalistic mood. Operation to lose some weight is stranded. Partly because I have not weighed myself for some time and partly because of the lack of exercise staying here in PJ. I now know how hard my mother has to work to look after her four kids. Trust me looking after my sister can sometimes make me pull my own hair but when she's fine, the smile makes it worth while. You can now call me my sister's keeper.

Back to some fun stuff. My sister and I are having a game of stalking. Beside our apartment is this guy which we did not get the chance to take a good look at but from a far he looked kinda cool,macho, cute... So we decided to make him a target and we started stalking him. Every time we hear the jinggling of keys we would run to the window to peek at him. Before we started this game, we bumped into him so many times, in which he held the elevator door for us twice, bumped into the car park. But after one incident where my sister and I were fooling around, laughing and acting crazy, we bumped into him and he got a shocked as my sister and I were making funny faces and were catwalking while trying not to bend our knees and hips. Imagine the sight we were in and how surprised he was. He must be scared by this two delusional and hyperactive kids staying next to him.

We even peeped to look at his badge in his car. He's from IACT. That's how crazy we are! =) But don't worry, it's all for fun. But since that incident, we have not bumped into him once. Hmmm, kinda made us think that he is avoiding us. =D He isn't right? We're not that scary are we?

Living alone and living with another person is different especially when that person needs looking after. Well, am glad to say, we both influence each other in quite a good way. I influence her to to to... ok, well, she influenced me to be more thrifty. Problem is, her thriftiness can go overboard sometime, I mean come on, you cannot compare the price of food in KL with Seremban. I had to smile when she was jotting down the expenses we use and the total makes her gasp in shock. Then she would insist on eating somewhere cheap like hawker stalls even though I want to bring her to tour around my college and have dinner there. She can be exasperating sometimes. But all in all, I love her. =)

Swam for 20 mins this morning.Alone. Sister was suppose to follow but the lazy bum refused to budge from her bed.

Ok, running out of things to write.

By the way, keep in mind, God is watching! =p

Time Flies.

Before I start off, this year is passing by really fast. I am in a state of denial, I'm finding it hard to believe that it is already the 24 of January and Chinese New Year is just around the corner. What's next? Christmas?

I am having difficulties in pouring out my feelings right now, so this post will be short and kinda empty.

THE END

Unchanging Love.

I've been holding back for so long and finally being able to let go has really lifted my spirits. I've been in bondage longer than I realized. For so long I have been afraid of taking the first step, and yet He was there all the time,waiting patiently for me to go back to Him.

To be honest, going for camp was a hasty decision which I was neither happy nor sad, excited nor gloomy. When Pastor Chris called for an alter call, I was hesitant and unsure whether God would speak to me again after all those times I have ignored His calling and shunned His love. Afraid and uncertain as I was, I took a tiny step forward,and suddenly it hit me. How great and unchanging God's love has for me. In my heart I instantly saw that all my sins have been forgiven, all I had to do was to take the first step and I was redeemed. I was saved. At that moment, the strong love and message that I felt brought tears to my eyes, I finally could cry and pour out my heart to God.

All the pain and suffering that I felt was because of my own doing, my own disobedience. I chose to carry my own pain and burden when God was there waiting with open arms to carry them for me. He went through so much pain and suffering so that we do not have to go through it ourselves but as usual, being humans, we thought we can do it all by our own strength.

For almost more than a year, I've let my heart turned so stone cold that I felt nothing. I was numbed towards any feeling and spiritually, this has been the lowest point of my life. Don't get me wrong, I still believed that God exist but I had locked Him up and tucked Him behind, way behind, like an unwanted object that was only hindering my way. I chose to find my own satisfaction, my own happiness and joy but during the alter call, I found out that joy and happiness can only be found at God's feet. All the time, I was searching for something that was already right in front of me, just waiting for me to receive it and yet time and time again, I've turned my eye from it and chose to go my own way.

Most of the time, we take God for granted. I started to take God for granted, yes, He is there for me, yada yada yada, sermons went in one ear and out the other. Praying became a chore, reading the Bible was as scarce as finding water on a desert. Slowly but surely, I was turning my back against God. Inside of me I knew I had to change but I was stubborn and therefore, I turned my back and walked out the door.

After walking out the door, I felt that praying was useless, and so I stopped praying. I felt that sermons were boring. Worship a drag. I have become what we call a Sunday christian. Not only that, being in this state I've dragged people down with me as well.It is so much easier to drag down a person than to lift a person up. Looking back now, I feel so foolish.

In that ignorant state I was, I searched for entertainment and satisfaction from the world. What I felt was just temporary, I was always left wanting more. Nothing seemed to be able to satisfy me. Guess where I found my satisfaction and peace? By just taking one, ONE small step towards God. Just by saying I'm sorry, God had wiped my slate clean, He has carried me again, lifted me again.

This is my personal experience not some cock and bull story. Many times, I do not understand His ways but if we are able to understand everything, than what's the use of having God around to depend on?We may want to depend on our own strength and sometimes we may succeed but there will be a time when we need someone to lean on, to depend on, that is what God is for. Sooner or later we need to stop and rest. There is no such thing as a lone ranger. No one can survive being alone.

This is my testimony. My story, my life. My God has helped me in everything, He has protected me.Loved me. Every day that I am alive is proof that God exists and is everywhere, taking care of our needs, wiping away my tears, carrying me when I am weary, healing my heart.

His love for me is unchanging, faithful and is forever.

If God is for us,who can be against us.

It never really occured to me that I would turn 20. I always thought that from my teenage years I would then jump to the stage where I am working, living a stable life.Somehow, this has never occured to me.

I can't say I led a very fruitful and happy 2010,instead it was a year full of trials, tribulations,sorrow and tears. I've made so many terrible mistakes that I wish I could take them back. The disappointment from my loved ones, the terrible attitude that I had on me is enough to make the 'me' 5 years ago cringe in embarrassment and pain. It could be my brain cells, maturing only now at the age of 20 but I came to realisation that, there are so many mistakes waiting for me to make right and there I was, the whole of 2010, ignoring the fact that my life wasn't set right. I did not care, I could not be bothered.

Another realisation came to mind, you could have said that I have been ignoring God. I've literally abandoned Him. Funny thing is, I've realised that I've been living in fear,all alone, fear of the uncertainties, fear of the unknown but most of all, the fear of the wrath of God. Inside I knew I had to change, but as stubborn headed as a mule, I refused to let go of my pride and my own needs and stored this feeling away, locked up somewhere in hope that I would soon forget about it. Word from the wise, what is left unsettled will come back to haunt you. In fact, it haunted me everyday. Unconciously it left a nagging feeling which I pushed away, my conscience left, my heart turned cold, my feelings bitter and my life a sorrow.

If God is for us,who can be against us. An assuring phrase isn't it. Well, try turning it the other way around. If everything is for us but God is against us,isn't that scary. What's the use of all the treasures of the Earth if the creater of Earth Himself is against us. This scared and jolted me back to reality. I have been living a selfish and uncaring life for the past 2-3 years. Donning an outer shell, a different personality to deceive.

Unpretentious. That's what I want for myself. Not having to laugh and smile when deep inside I know I'm crying.

Joy. The deep and real kind of happiness that comes from God.

Love. Love for the unlovable. Love,pure and genuine, the greatest gift anyone could ever give.

Caring.Believe it or not, I admire the 8 year old little girl that I was. The willingness to go an extra mile for anybody,everybody.Ungrudgingly, with a smile on her face and a dance in her steps.

Obedience. Someone, please send me to an obedience school. Oh wait, those are for dogs only.

Courage. There are so many times that I know something is wrong, and yet, I clamped my mouth shut in fear of being criticised, in fear of rejection and in fear of being wrong or offending people. Call me the cowardly lion.

Hopefully and PRAYERFULLY, I would learn to be a more responsible, loving and godly woman,forever growing in the sight of God.

My parents chided me for still being a child eventhough I am 20. Reason: I still jump down the stairs,I rush down, skipping 2-3 steps every time,creating noise where ever I go.My mum said,my behaviour is equivalent to a 2 year old child while my dad still thinks I'm 12.

Someone said to me, no matter how old I become, in the eyes of my father, I would still be his 12 year old little girl.

I have to thank my parents for the upbringing and the happy childhood that I had.

A note to Mum and Dad,

I know you will read this sooner or later, I am really thankful for all the scoldings and lecturing(lectures mostly from mum though,when dad gets angry...well, you don't really want to know), all the love and protection you provided, basically for everything, the very fact that I am still here is the proof of God's love and yours. I may not say this very often but I love you. Thank you. I really appreciate all those many years of upbringing. I want to apologise for all those heart ache and tough years you had to go through, the rebellious little demon I was, the ''wild'' teenager some time, the sour-pus the other.

No matter what I do, nothing can ammount to what you have done for us four kids. The sacrifices you guys went through, the pain the both of you encountered due to my stubborness and laziness and all the other nesses...I'm sorry.

=)

PS:Looks like your stuck with me for another few more years.=p

Back from the dead.

Yes, these are the pictures I promised to upload for quite some time and no, I am not dead,just on hiatus for some time.

These pictures are not in order but I would just like to sum of the whole of last year's last month. Meaning December 2010. Dad brought the whole family shopping in KL, specifically Midvalley. We shopped for 7-8 hours non-stop. Twas a real shopping spree where we shopped till we drop. =) I had fun.Dad had booked a room in PJ Hilton and that was where we spent the night.

It was beautiful, the room. The picture below is just part of the room. Too lazy to upload the rest but it was really good.Who says we need to travel overseas to enjoy ourselves? =) Thanks dad for the wonderful experience.
Found this black little cheong sam in Midvalley, didn't buy it though. Really cheap,about RM25 only but I found it a little to short for my liking. =p


It is of stretchy material which clings to your body, so woe betide if I had bought it, I would have to really watch what I eat as it would show later. That was one of the other reason I didn't want to but the dress. =p

Taught Fluffy a new trick, she now knows how to jump onto chairs,where she curls up into a tight ball and sleeps soundly. But thanks to this new trick, she now thinks she is accepted at the dining table as one of the family as well.

Where's my share of food?

I shall sit here and sulk until my food arrives.

One night, dad decided to style the doggies fur. He even used real gel and gel-ed their fur.
These are the end results.

Whatcha looking at punk, my mohawk looks beta than yours.

Cute ain't she. =)

Did I mention I made pizza? From scratch? And real cinnamon buns using yeast?
If I were to open my own pizza shop, I would encounter more loss than profit as the toppings of the pizza is way more than the crust. Wahahha, but it was delicious if I may say so myself.

Pizza with sausages, bacon,tomatoes,mushrooms,pineapples and lotsa lotsa cheese. Mozzarella cheese. We even made stuffed crust. =) Yummeh!

The pizza dough that I made from scratch.

Fluffy had a boo boo so we had it plastered up.

This is Hershey. The mummy that provided the cute little puppies.

Made chocolate cookies some time back. With lots of chocolate chips and extra chocolate bars.

Hand written recipes.
I just found this egg yolk very fascinating. The perfectly round egg yolk. Yum...

Received flowers on the 27th November. =D rawhahahhahaha...

Last but not least. a close up of Flufferssss...
Btw, this cutie helped sniff out a rat in the house. She was in the kitchen with the family when she suddenly started sniffing really intensely around in the wet kitchen and my eldest sis suspected that it was a rat and true enough she saw the tail of the rat under the gas tank. Dad and sis tried to exterminate the rat by pouring hot water and using a broom. It ran all over the kitchen and plates which resulted in having the whole family cleaning the whole kitchen from top to bottom. Ok. Back to the rat, Trix actually used the broom to kill it. It was running around and when it ran towards her, she used the brrom and slammed it right down on it's head. Ouch. The whole time, I was hiding up on the table... Nah, hahah, I was out. Would love to have helped in the capture of the rat though.The funny thing was, as the rat was lying there on the floor, twitching, having it's last few breathes, Fluffy ran in and bit the rat. My hero. =) Chris had to then wash her mouth with detol. Poor thing. =) But we rewarded her with plenty of biscuits and praises.

I haven't really made any resolutions this year. But I will try to be a better person. This year. And the many more years to come.