The Younger Days...

When I was young...No,please don't start singing that song...\

MEMORY 1...
Well,when I was little, I use to play with fire.Seriuosly,I mean it. I remember when I was around 5-6 years old, my maid went out to buy some groceries and Iremembered taking one of those metal tin biscuits,quite flat and square in shape,while taking a whole bunch of newspapers and a box of matches. Started burning the newspapers and throwing them into the tin and suddenly the flame looked a little too big for my liking and I panicked.Mind you,this happened IN the house.Grabbed a bowl,filled with water and just threw water on it.God must have bigger palns for me because nothing caught fire and fire no more... Just shoved the tin of water-ashed-newspaper under the cupboard.

MEMORY 2...
13-14 years of age,there was this unoccupied house which faces the jungle.This house is just right around the corner from my house.You know those old creepy houses,with cob webs and weeds as tall as you?Trust me,this is really unoccupied. But I found out that a female dog had given birth to 7 puppies and guess what,being the little tomboy and daredevil I was,I would creep out of the house go visit them,usually in the afternoon. I would crawl under this wired-fence and feed the little pups with the bread I brought along for me.What can I say,I've always loved animals.The visits became more often and the puppies were looking forward in meeting me and even the mother dog would await for the tasty morsel of bread. I can't stand the dogs looking thin and unhealthy. I would even go down to the drain to pick up one of the pups which had crawled out and barricaded it with some bricks...They soon grew up and left the nest but I remember that the mother dog would follow me to my house,and I was so happy. Then the dog cathcers/shooters came... It did not end well...

Ok,this got me depressed and now am going to drown myself in chocolate...

Kthnxbai...

I do not know why but for some really weird random reason, I find myself smiling when ever I see people use or say this phrase, kthnxbai which is ok-thanks-bye. I find it cute.It gives me the impression that the person using this said something wrong(in a cute way) and is trying to get out of the conversation as soon as possible. Don't understand me?Me neither...

Not use to the noise at home...

Mood:grouchy,with a tinge of irritation,a knack for sudden outburst and grumpy.

Argh...

I'm confused...Am I just being oversensitive or you are being overprotective and clingy?

Need space...

We're going down...

Little bits of lyrics from One Republic-All the Right Moves.

Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear
And the sound you like
Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces?

It can be possible that rain can fall,
Only when it's over our heads
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away
Over the world is death.

It don't matter what you see.
I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you.
It don't matter what you say,
I know I could never face
someone that could sound like you.

It's the circle of life...

Have you ever notice that every time you wish for a holiday,majority of the time you would end up regretting as there would be nothing to do during the hols and the boredom is enough to kill?Well, I do.

I was literally begging to God for a holiday and when my holidays started, BAM, the boredom can kill. The boredom comes mainly from not being with friends as many are to lazy to meet up while in college we meet everyday and there's where the fun begins. I badly need to meet up with them and have fun. Oh, those crazy-ass things we college students do. =)

Well, as my holidays continue and when my next semester starts, you bet you will hear me whining that I WISH it was the holiday season already. It's the nasty continuous cycle of of life isn't it. Life is out there to annoy the crap out of you.

Life of balance,money and friends...

Funny isn't it, when life does not go according to plan and you are left in a whole big puddle of mess?

It is even funnier to think that our lives are going according to plan and yet some are not satisfied with it. Overall, humans are never satisfied with what they have, we crave for more and it is never-ending. The flow of need is and will always be there.

We all want what's best for ourselves right? Is it wrong to judge people? Choosing someone is a form of judgment,do you get what I mean? If we do not judge,then we would all be marrying the first person we lay our eyes on. Hey,no judgment right?Then why choose and pick and be all so-he's/she's-not-right-for-me crap.

We all judge,no matter what we say otherwise. Typically,we are a whole lot of liars. =)

You is liar,me too!

Throw me off balance. I am losing my foothold here!

Yeah, we all will fall down one day.No matter how hard we try to stay upright,we are doomed and bound to fall for eternity.(nah,just joking,haha,we get to stand up again,just wanted to know what it feels like to be a prophet of doom...)

Ok,end of balance topic,let's continue to the friends topic! (A change from all the thinking and doom and nonsense from the post above.)

My Fwens...

Mich's pre-birthday celebration.Hey, she's even grander than the Sultan,she gets to celebrate her birthday 5 times while he only gets to celebrate once.Yeah,it sucks to be the Sultan.. =)

Went to Tarbush(though for no particular reason,I keep calling it TarBRush) and the food was good. Mediterranean setting with the whole Arabian feeling to it. Was kinda expecting the waiters to come in flying carpets and the chef a genie. Reasonable,delicious and with portions enough to feed the entire calvary,what more can you ask for?

Thanks to PR and the late nights,I now have a huge(well,not that huge) zit on mah face! MAH FACE MAN! Hehe,not really bothered though. But I remember when I was still a innocent,puny,naive,peer-pressured teen,I would be so ashamed of it and will try to hide and when people end up noticing it,my self esteem gets really low, and a little depressed. Just a little mind you,I do not get in to the whole suicidal mode of wrist-cutting-building-jumping-pill-swallowing-knife-stabbing-rope-hanging-tree-chopping...???

Am not happy with my feet.Me no happy feet. First it was my hands,now feet?Skin peeling can be kind of addictive, if not gross... Bleugh...

Am gonna work with my cousin again who's a vet(for the benefit of those who don't know what a vet is, vet=animal doctor)

You know what,I want to be famous in my own way so that I can get invited to parties and stuff!!!

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Ok,that was not me.Remember my alter ego I was telling you about, she suddenly resurfaced! Argh,need doctor now!!! *suffocates*

Well,after much thinking and disturbing and annoying people,I have finally come to the conclusion that I would keep my hair long again.And if I don't like it,I can always chop it off and ta da, short hair again! Brilliant aren't I?Genius! Bravo! *clap clap*

Ok,you know what,I think I better stop if not this will become an extremely weird-long-self-indulging post...

If you like me,please give me a holler...(argh,alter ego,alter ego! argh~~~~)

Autophobia...No, it does not mean the fear of automatic machines.

Autophobia aka fear of being alone.

I can't remember what I wanted to blog about...

Oh...I finished my assignments finally... That's all...

Life is short on this earth...

It didn't really hit me that life is this fragile.It never dawned on me that at such an age,at any age, death is capable of snatching it away without a reason,without an inkling of thought. Honestly speaking,I was shocked. It didn't seem to be real.I couldn't not fanthom how such one who was so full of spirit and joy could be gone...It didn't seem true.

Though we weren't that close,the impact is still there,the respect I had for him was enormous,from the way he handled things and to the strength and kindness he had shown to others.Joash Wee,you are and always will be a source of inspiration to others.

I had thought of mourning over him but a friend told me, why cry over him when he is already in heaven with the Lord,he should be crying for us,to those who are still here on earth.

Never take anyone for granted. Treat each day as if today was your last day,every person you see might be the last time you meet. If everyone would do that, the world would be a better place.

Joash,I'll say a prayer for your family and God Bless...